#4: TRUST

FML

My poor, poor DS. Last summer I messed up the hinge by unconsciously rolling over it while talking on the phone. I didn't break it persay, it just didn't click into place anymore and the hinges swung around violently.

This time, the right hinge completely broke off and it now hangs procariously on one hinge. Everything still works, but it's just sooo unattractive. I need to get it fixed. Only thing is, it costs ~$75 to $100 to repair the hinge. I might as well buy a new one right?

Wrong. I'm soo broke it's not even funny right now. I saved $70 for my Heelys and another $70 for my Reeboks. Plus the expensive $45 haircut that didn't even make a difference. And I haven't even incuded the large amount of money I spent buying the ingredients for my signature jello shots. I don't even collect fade money for them!

Maybe if I'm lucky my parents will agree to pay for the repair. Or I can trade with one of my little cousins, hehe.

I need to stop spending money. Summer definitely is draining my wallet. It would probably help if I had a summer job, but no one finds me worth hiring. Also, going out almost everyday isn't helping much. There's always someone asking for a kick it day, which usually involves some kind of stop at a food joint. Which involves the spendage of money. Money that I'm running out of. FML

shrimp balls

Bus trip to UCBerkeley. Took a nice, quick nap until we got to BerkeleyBionics. Met a couple engineers building some cyborg/Iron Man shits. One of them was a cutie <3

Hoped back on the bus to Berkeley and had 2 hours of lunch. Couldn't decide on Mexican, Vietnamese, Korean, Japanese, or Thai. Leaned towards Thai but gave into Japanese. I can't resist bento boxes & shrimp balls. 8)

After lunch, went on campus, and I saw a squirrel. Not like the grey squirrels at Candlestick park, but beautiful red and brown squirrels! Me encanta. Followed it a bit before sitting down next to a large pile of woodchips. Suprisingly, the curious squirrel came closer. Fished out my mini-box of rasins and managed to coax it closer. When it was close enough to touch my hand, I freaked and tossed the rasin onto the floor. Squirrels are dangerous little critters, I wouldn't want to risk my finger!

Sigh, the Berkeley campus was sooo beautiful and mellow and serene an peaceful. If anything, I'd attend the school just because of the campus.

summer of L.O.V.E.

Ahem. Harry Potter was the BOMB. End of story.

++ Krista & I are dumb hos 8) I just wanted to mention that.

I'm so over drama. It should be illegal for me to use that word. Because I use it way too much. But that's entirely because Pierce&I were comitted and complicated. And my on&off fling w/ David. These boys are killing me. I just want a peaceful life. Is that too much to ask for?

Seriously though, imma beat Krista, because I have a secret weapon. What is it you ask? Well I can't tell you because it's secret and she'll most likely read this anyways. Going out to a party tonight though, Steve's house. Wish me luck <3

Trust

I do. I do trust you and I do know that you're there for me no matter what. It's not that I don't want to, but it's just my nature to keep everything bottled up. I have many, many great friends that I know will stand by me and are willing to help me with my problems. But I do hate to complicate things.

Strangers aren't complicated, though. I can meet a completely random stranger and confide in him/her my deepest darkest secrets, knowing that they could never hurt me because I probably won't ever see them again. But confiding in my closest friends is difficult, impossible even. I know you must be thinking, "Oh, this girl must have horrible friends if she can't even share her darkest secrets with them."

See, that's where you're wrong.

I love my friends to death and I would hate to empty my baggage onto them. So by not telling them my secrets, I am actually protecting them. Thay won't have to feel sorry for me, like "Poor Leana, she has such a horrible life." I don't need anyone's pity.

 It's just the way I am.

 

#3: If you love me, don't hold me back.

#2: Don't disregard the things left unsaid.

#1: Don't love me because you think I'm different