revelation #22

she imagines from up above, a plane passing over. from the plane, you'd just see one little light in all this dark, with no idea of the lives being lived within it, and in the next, and next to that one. there was so much happening in the world, night and day, hour by hour. she knew that's why humans were meant to sleep, if only to check out of reality for a little while.

but what if she decided to sleep the rest of her life away?

revelation #21

maybe there are some days like that where she doesn't know anymore where she's going, and maybe she feels like she doesn't have any luck at all, and that's just too bad. yes, it's sad, but fortunately, at the end, there's always this little thing that gets her up in the morning. no guarantee, but she thinks that one day, one day things will get better.

somtimes, it's just impossible to believe.

revelation #20

she liked to pretend that they were difficult, even for a second. because that made things more fun. but in reality, everyone she knew was typical. they were too easy. and the game wasn't much of a game. maybe she was happy in her ignorance. but maybe she knew it wouldn't last for long. soon she gets tired of the game. and maybe lady luck is on her side. and she'll find someone who she's comfortable with and she might even decide to settle down. and maybe things will get serious, and before she knows it, she trusts him with all that she is. and she can only hope that he does the same.

she's not the same desperate, lonely girl who hooked up with any guy just to feel loved.

revelation #19

maybe she found her life pointless, and maybe she had nothing to fight for. she was given many chances, and there were many possibilities and what ifs. but maybe to her, it was a bunch meaningless bull. maybe all she needed was a push, a little motivation, a reason to live.

what good did it do to light the world on fire if i had to watch the glow alone?

Never Forget. Never Forgive.

"You've got to put the past behind you now. What's dead is dead, and life is for the alive, my dear. We could have a life, us two. Maybe not like I dreamed, maybe not like you remember, but we could get by."  --Mrs. Lovett