all grown up

college has started, as of last wednesday. classes don't seem so tough, but i can't judge yet, the semester has barely even started. i'm slightly worried about math class, because it seems to be my toughest class so far. but, i will do my best to stay on top of my game and graduate as soon as possible. which might take five or six years, because of my major. the hardest part is being away from my lover, even though i know i can always talk to him on the phone and online, and i'll see him most weekends. during the summer, we got to be together almost 24/7, and now i have to wait until the weekend until i get to see him again. but when his school year starts, who knows how often i'll actually get to see him. there's a lot of free time during college. my monday and wednesday classes go from 12-6pm. tuesday classes go from 8am-3pm. and thursday i have class at 8-9am, and then 12-3pm. so i basically have a full schedule, three classes each day, except thursday, which has four. but when i'm not in class, there's not much to do. i hang out with the new people i've met here. go eat, hang out in someone's room, watch tv, go online. there's not much to do when you're stuck on campus. it could get pretty boring around here, if you lock yourself up in your room. but since i have a lot of free time, hopefully i'll use it wisely and study or do homework. i have math homework everyday, so i'll also try my best to study everyday i do homework. and i'll be working on a lot of essays this semester, i know there will be more than 10. also i have many group projects coming up. it seems like school work will be taking up most of my time, so who knows is i have the time to join a club or something. the school year has just started, so we'll see how everything works out.

revelation #26

there has been a confrontation, a showdown of sorts, followed by a cooling off period. memories become distorted, imaginings of what could have been grew exaggerated, and annoyances got dismissed, even forgotten. it's what happened in absence, and the longer it went on, the greater the crash that would come from giving it another try.

it was like trying to correct your posture. you know that you slouch, so you straighten your back and vow to forever sit up right, only to find a moment later, 

you're hunched over again.

revelation #25

fault lines; there are places where the earth breaks apart. the ground is crumbling under us.

maybe it's the solid ground beneath our feet that's an illusion.

revelation #24

 there are moments when i waited, and there are days when i find myself apologizing because everything wasn't perfect for someone else,

whether or not it had anything to do with me.

revelation #23

maybe she likes him because he reminds her of past events that still bring a smile to her face, 

even though they're associated with someone who doesn't always make her smile these days.

Hawaii

recently got back from my trip to Hawaii w/ the husband. it was really fun, but it did feel a bit short. the weather was nice, not extremely hot, but hot enough to enjoy the beach. a lot of time was spent at the beach, swimming and playing in the sand. i didn't tan much during the vacation, nor during the entire summer either. i think i spent about four days a week tanning last summer. that was over doing. so i tried to make up for it this summer, spending a lot less time in the sun. we went snorkeling, which was really fun. it was also really scary. i'm used to snorkeling tours where they take you out on a boat to clear blue waters that are at least 20 feet deep. so you can still see the bottom, but there's no fear that you'll brush up into a reef. but this was a new experience. apparently there was a sea turtle, but it was near big reefs, so i freaked out and turned back towards shore. we went to the dole plantation, to get some pineapple ice cream, which i think is an absolute must, if you're going to Hawaii. we also spent a night at dave&busters, which was really fun. won a lot of tickets, somehow; and i still don't understand how. on the last day, we went jet skiing, which was really exciting. i was a bit scared at first, because every time we drove through a wave, the jet ski would jump in the air, and bounce back onto the surface of the water; which was painful, but fun. i rode it for a bit, but was afraid i would flip the jet ski. overall, i'd say the trip was a success, and it was an awfully nice honeymoon ♥