"God is God, and we are not. He knows 

that, but we are quick to forget it."

How You Like Them Apples

girls are like apples on trees.
the bestones are at the top of
the tree. boys don't want to reach for the
good apples because they are afraid of falling
and getting hurt. instead, they get the rotten apples
from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. so 
theapples at the top think something is wrong
with them, when in fact,
they are amazing.
they just have to
wait for the right
boy, the ♥one who
will risk everything,
who's brave enough
to climb all the way
_____@____@_____to the top of the tree.______@__@___

--Pete Wentz

revelation #38

When he's not paying attention, she stares at him and squints, 
hoping to bring an out-of-focus man back into focus

revelation #37

she parts the waters swirling in her mind, ordering herself to push aside memories of that night as long as she could. she would drown if she thought about it.


now she had to swim

i'm so emotionally spent and he's so emotionally unavailable

revelation #36

She is wasting away
& wonders is maybe someday
he will come and save her
from her state of apathy
but she can't believe in fairytales
when there's no such things
as a happy ending.


She is wasting her days
in pieces she can't put to place
she has surrendered to her apathy
she keeps wasting her days
in solitude, no one's to say
and all that is left is apathy

revelation #35

so it really can happen, then. in real life. a thing you've seen in bad tv dramas and turned over because it's so implausible. only this time there is no turning over and maybe no turning back. one moment the world is pretty much as it should be, rocky and a little barren, perhaps, but still the world as you know it -- 


and then suddenly you have the sensation of the ground giving way under your feet.

Teason Tran-Le Miao

If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

revelation #34

my cupboards are filled with pride, and i am considering building a shed out back where i can store the surplus, because every time i consider opening up to him about what i am going through, i immediately dump the thought in the trash, ashamed of how foolish and vulnerable i'd look.

i'm tired of looking stupid and vulnerable

revelation #33

when you set out to live according to some grand master plan, you are essentially assuring yourself a lifetime of dissapointment. expectation is planned dissapointment,

and i am noting if not a planner.