she's always been surrounded by people. physically, she was rarely alone. maybe because she knew it was dangerous for her to be alone for too long. she was unstable. it wasn't like she didn't have friends. she had too many friends, so she stopped keeping track of them. plans were usually made with minimal effort on her part, and she was always 'with' someone. but there was something else. an emptiness in her mind. she could be surrounded by people who cared about her, or at least wanted to be around her, and she'd still feel painfully alone.