Make yourself available. Then run.

Hello, hello.

Thought about the most recent activities, and was highly dissapointed and highly satisfied with myself.

Hooking up with random guy whose kisses were slobbery & reminded of dog saliva. The worst kiss to date, which I ended quickly, and happened to ruin most of the rest of my evening.

But then, had a movie night with a some old friends. Happily took my mind off of previous experience & did best to make memory dissapear.

Then, didn't hook up with non-random guy that I lovelovelove. Not that I'd ever admit that to him. Taking things too fast always end up in chaos. I would know, every single one of my relationships pretty much end up the same way. So, I am proud of myself for holding back, no matter how hard it was. I'm trying to follow the advice given by a close personal friend, "Make yourself available. Then run." In theory, it makes sense; guys like the chase; therefore I plan to give one hell of a chase. But in practice, it is quite difficult to not give in to your wants and needs.