My Life minus The Drama equals Perfection.

Day 5: Meat-less
It hasn't been too difficult keeping up my vegetarianism. The only hard parts are when I go out to eat and when my mom offers me meat/fish. But I'm starting to love tofu and am very thankful for my fruits & veggies, so I've been doing very well, if I do say so myself.

Plus, my new tarot card deck has come. This all ties in to my number one summer goal of beginning the search to find myself. 8) Corny, I know. But there aren't any other ways I can put it. I am a lost little child. Lost, but motivated.

Another thing, lifeguard training. It was killer. I honestly did over 25 laps yesterday. That's the most I've ever done in my life. And I've dropped 5 pounds & gained a little bit of muscle tone. This is probably because of the fact that I've added 20 minutes of pilates 5 days a week. Wow my life sounds perfect.

Onto the Drama. Relationships are painfully awkward. You're stuck with this one person, and you're not allowed to share your unconditional love with anyone but this person. And it sucks. See, Pierce and I were different. As with more guys that I date, there is an understanding that we are allowed to 'enjoy' ourselves with others. Just as long as at the end of the day, you know who you're dating and who you belong to. The one-night stands don't mean a thing, so they shouldn't be ruining the relationship. But what happens when the relationship ends? Are you allowed to hook-up with that ex? Would that just make you friends with benefits? So doesn't that mean that your previous relationship was meaningless? The memories of love still linger, but confusion overshadows them. Also adding to this is the fact that myself & Pierce are at that awkward stage after the end of an intense relationship. At it hurts to know that we aren't truly friends. Just polite acquaintances. So tell me where to go from here.